reckless abandon

A-mazing church service this morning. It was exactly what I needed to hear. Specific things that I had been talking to God about were addressed. It was humbling.

Sometimes I struggle with letting go and just letting God do whatever He wants to do with my life. I know that He will protect me, love me and carry me through whatever may come. I know it, but I don't trust it. I get scared that He will send a trial my way, and it will be too hard. I imagine the worst, like one of my family members dying. I get so scared that I choose to stay where I am in my walk with Him rather than fully trusting and letting go of this "control" that I think I have over my life and following Him with reckless abandon.

I've been specifically praying that God will give me courage. I want to go deeper. I want to see Him on new levels. I want to know Him more tomorrow than I do today. I have to leave behind the comfort level I have now. I don't want to be content with where I am.

These was one of the verses read this morning....

"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes." Matt 6:34 (the Message)

Um, yeah. Those words were for me. I have so much to learn. So much to give up. So much to let go of. So much. I'm so thankful for His patience with me.

Service ended with some of my favorite songs.

Enough by Chris Tomlin
All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

You are my supply
My breath of life
And still more awesome than I know
You're the coming King
You are everything
And still more awesome than I know

All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

You’re my sacrifice
Of greatest price
And still more awesome than I know
You’re the coming King
You are everything
And still more awesome than I know

More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can say
You are more than enough for me

More Than a Friend by Jeremy Riddle
In the quiet of my soul
In the stillness I hear Your voice call
And I am overwhelmed
And I am lost for words
To describe You

Chorus:
Jesus You're more than a friend
Jesus You're more than my heart could ever express
Your love and Your grace never fail me
Your merciful touch always heals me
You bring joy to my soul

My heart longs to worship You my King
And I long to bring You a pleasing offering
And I am overwhelmed
And I am lost for words
To describe You